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<\/p>\nThe email arrived today, just as it always does, 5 days before my mother\u2019s birthday: \u201cIt\u2019s time to order flowers for Margaret!\u201d The florist that sends this reminder has been in business in my hometown for over 100 years and has provided flowers for every birthday, wedding and funeral in my family for as long as I can remember.<\/p>\n
I search through the available bouquets featured in the email: Sunny Siesta, Fields of Autumn, Country Sunrise, Butterfly Effect. I think Fields of Autumn is perfect, with orange lilies, green hydrangeas and yellow dahlias. Mom will love the colors and the wild, just-picked look of the arrangement.<\/p>\n
But this year marks the fifth year that I won\u2019t be sending mail order flowers to Mom; the fifth birthday when I won\u2019t be calling her and hearing about her special celebrations with friends; the fifth year since her death, when I mark her special day by lighting an orange candle in a private celebration of my own.<\/p>\n
Each year when the email reminder arrives I feel a familiar twinge of pain and loneliness as I imagine Mom\u2019s face lighting up when she opens the front door to receive the flowers I\u2019ve chosen for her. I see her placing the bouquet on her kitchen table, near the window where she always looked out to watch me play in the park across the street.<\/p>\n
I wonder why the florist doesn\u2019t know that Mom has died? They provided all of the flowers for her funeral, including the casket spray she had ordered and paid for several years earlier. I\u2019m sure some people would be upset about the emails they send every September, but somehow I\u2019ve grown to cherish them.<\/p>\n
Choosing a special birthday bouquet for Mom is a long-held ritual for me and one of the last connections I have to our relationship. There\u2019s an indescribable emptiness that occurs with the death of the only person who loves every school photo of you, including the ones with missing teeth, pigtails, and geeky glasses; when the only person who would save your report cards and crayon drawings in the bottom of her lingerie drawer is gone; when you can never again feel the relief that comes from the sound of her voice calling you \u201choney\u201d over the telephone.<\/p>\n
Mom\u2019s belongings, the special treasures that she had gathered over her lifetime, were sorted and scattered within a few months of her death. And her house, where I spent my childhood, has been remodeled by its new owners. The kitchen window no longer exists and the bedroom where she died is now unrecognizable. The cabin in the mountains where we used to camp and fish is now the playground of some other family.<\/p>\n
But in my memory Mom still opens the front door for the deliveryman and claps her hands with joy over the Fields of Autumn bouquet he holds out to her. She still clears a special spot on the table where the sunlight will show off the orange and yellow blossoms and arranges the attached card so that everyone can see who sent her birthday flowers. She still sits patiently in her reclining chair with the telephone in her lap, waiting for my birthday call. And I still whisper \u201cI love you Mom,\u201d as I celebrate the fact that she was born to one day be my mother and raise me to be a mother myself.<\/p>\n
So this year as I study the floral arrangements available to order and choose the perfect flowers for Mom, I have one lingering hope: that the florist keeps sending my reminder email every September. To them I say: thank you for still remembering my Mom\u2019s special day, for helping me maintain my last remaining tribute to her and for the way my face lights up with joy when I see the orange and yellow colors of the Fields of Autumn bouquet.<\/p>\n
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